Shania Twain Couldn't Sing or talk After Ex's Betrayal

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Shania Twain is "tired of suppressing [herself]" when it comes to discussion about the disentanglement of her wedding and unfaithfulness at the hands of her best friend. In the June issue of REDBOOK, Twain, 45, truthfully speaks about the divide of her 14-year- wedding to music manufacturer Robert "Mutt" Lange after his issue with her near friend Marie-Anne Thibaud.

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"I felt that the earlier I could unwind about my secrets, the earlier I'd discover the relief that comes with free," she explains. "Nothing like getting it out there in the sunshine and fresh air."

So presently what did it sense like when she found out about her previous best friend and ex-husband's affair? "It was like I was kicked off my own bus while it was affecting full speed ahead, and I landed in the dirt and the whole thing I had was thrown out after me. And after tumbling and getting a mouthful of dirt, I had to try to stand up, then figure out where I was and start walking."

Twain says it took regarding eight months before she realized, "Yes, I'm still me, and yes, I'm a mother, and yes, I'm a singer and a songwriter, and I can love again, and I have friends, and yes, I'm alive."

The five-time Grammy champion was not capable to sing in front of public after the affair because of a state called dysphonia. "It's a restriction that's both psychological and emotional, and it accurately does choke the muscles around the voice box."

"When my marriage ruined down, I got so physically slim that I couldn't get any volume out at all," she recalls. "I couldn't even call for my dog. I understand I couldn't live devoid of singing and had to do amazing about it. This is why I was like, 'Just get it all out right now. Clean the pipes.'"

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Twain's now-husband, Frederic Thibaud, unspoken exactly how she was emotion. It was Thibaud's ex-wife who had an extramarital affair with Twain's ex. "I got to observe Fred leaving through the same thing that I was, and I accepted how he handled it," she express. "That is where I fell in love with him, because he was so very good in every way."